Could it be that even Marlee couldn't believe what she was seeing last Tuesday night?
In the middle of the journey of my life, I am--as always--a woman on a bike. Although I do not know where this road will lead, the way is not lost, for I have arrived here. And I am on my bicycle, again.
I am Justine Valinotti.
12 November 2024
09 June 2024
They Prefer To Ride With Their Own
I tried, really tried, to get Caterina, Charlie I, Candice, Charlie II, Max and Marlee to ride with me. I even promised to get a recumbent bike so they could curl up in my lap as I pedaled. Alas!
Now I understand the problem: It’s not that they didn’t want to ride with me. They wanted (and Marlee wants) to ride with, shall we say, their own!
12 May 2024
Happy Mother’s Day
Some would argue that I have never been a mother because I have never had human children. I wouldn’t argue with them.
Others, mainly people who have pets, would say that I am a mama, or at least a parent, to Marlee—and that I was one to Max, Charlie II*, Candice, Charlie I, Caterina and Sara*. I often refer to the six cats and one dog I’ve housed, fed and loved as my children or “babies.”
There is at least one thing, though, I couldn’t do with them that, perhaps, I could have done with a human child: ride a bicycle. Perhaps even more important, I never could have taught them how to ride one.
In any event, to all of you who are moms (Your children are always your children even after they move out—or, felines forbid, die) : Happy Mother’s Day.
*—Sara was a beagle-hound pup I had briefly, before any of my cats. While out for a walk, a man petted and played with her. “My grandkids would love a dog like that.” They played some more. “They could play with it in our backyard…”
“Your backyard?”
“Yeah, in my house in Pennsylvania.”
I let them play for a moment. “How would you like to take her?”
The man’s eyes widened. “How much do you want for her?”
“Nothing. She’ll be happier in your house and yard than in my apartment. She gets to go outside only when I get home from work.”
The following weekend, he took me and Sara to his house, where I met his grandkids. She was happy to meet them. And I was happy for her.
22 April 2024
Who Copes Better?
02 February 2024
What Did He Say?
Punxsutawney Phil, the world's most famous weather forecaster, has made his prediction: He didn't see his shadow so, according to folklore, an early Spring awaits us.
While I don't mind winter--and this one hasn't been especially cold--I would welcome an early Spring. Whether the temperatures remain low or rise well above normal, the days are growing longer. But Spring-like weather makes the skies seem brighter and blooms more vibrant. Plus, I would be happy to ride with fewer layers of clothing.
Neither Marlee nor any other cat who's been in my life has been able (or willing?) to ride with me. I've seen people ride with their dogs. I wonder what it would be like to cycle with a ground hog--if such a thing is possible.
From Bike Walk Wichita
03 January 2024
What I Woke For
People in Miami are as unaccustomed to snow as Harpo Marx was to public speaking.
Likewise, most New Yorkers aren’t used to earthquakes. In a way, ground-shakes are even stranger for us: When white flakes fluttered down to the sands and palm trees of the Sunshine State, folks knew what they were looking at. On the other hand, most people here in the Big Apple thought the rumbles came from a truck or subway train. Or, like me, they slept through it—even though the epicenter was just a few blocks from my apartment.
I am sure that countless Californians have slept through much stronger shocks. Still, it’s hard not to wonder whether an earthquake—in a city that experiences them about as often as the Jets or the Knicks win championships—on the second morning of the new year is a harbinger of what awaits us.
What finally woke me up? The helicopters that circled over the neighborhood. Marlee ducked behind the couch. I knew I wouldn’t get back to sleep. So I got dressed, hopped on Tosca—my Mercian fixie—and pedaled into this:
I hope that’s more of a foretelling of the year to come.
After pedaling out to Flushing Meadow-Corona Park, I stopped at Lots ‘O’ Bagels for two whole wheat bagels. In my apartment, I enjoyed them with some English Blue Stilton cheese. Some might say that no true New Yorker would eat a bagel that way but I like the way EBC’s creamy texture complements both the cheese’s pungency and the bagel’s chewiness. I can, however, still claim to be a true New Yorker because I’m not accustomed to earthquakes but got through one, however minor it was. And I started my day with a bike ride.
31 October 2023
On Wheels or Paws
Happy Halloween!
I have had six cats, including Marlee, in my life. I love Marlee and miss the other five. Each was beautiful and sweet in his/her own way.
I must admit, however, that I've never had a black cat. It's not a matter of fear or superstition: All of my feline friends, except for the first Charlie, were rescues. And he was part of a litter of kittens born to the cat of someone with whom I was taking a class. So, in a sense, he, like the others, found his way into my life.
One of my few regrets is that I've never figured out how to ride with a cat. Oh, when the first Charlie and Marlee were kittens, I could have carried them in a knapsack or something, but I'm not sure they would have liked it. In a way, that might have been a good thing: Having Caterina, Charlie I, Candice, Charlie II, Max or Marlee home while I was out--whether for a spin around the neighborhood, a day trip or a longer trek--gave me something to look forward to at the end of a ride.
Still, I wonder, what would it have been like to have one of them--or a black cat--on a ride with me?
29 October 2023
Taking One For The Humans
I don't drive. So, if Marlee has ever been in a car, it was with her rescuer.
And I've tried taking her on rides with me. If yo have a cat, you know how well that worked out.
Therefore, I have no idea of how she'd react to a pothole. But she might know a thing or two about how we, as humans, might respond:
(By the way, those photos are not of Marlee. She's been in other posts!)
17 August 2023
A Surprise During A Ride Without A Plan
Errands and things that weren’t so complicated that a politician or lawyer couldn’t further complicate them took up my morning.
25 July 2023
Leading
Have you ever heard your bike calling out to you?
Well, I can’t say I have—at least, not literally. But when I pedaled La-Vande, my King of Mercia, to Greenwich, Connecticut on Saturday, she seemed to be leading me there—the way Marlee does when she rubs against my ankles and steers me toward the sofa.
Well, Saturday was a nearly perfect day for a ride of any kind, of any length on any bike. But I think La-Vande had ulterior motives.
She wanted to pose against a backdrop she knew would flatter her.
Sunday was almost as nice a day for a ride. So to Point Lookout I went, this time with Vera, my Mercian mixte. She didn’t seem to be “leading “ me there, but I believe she enjoyed the breeze off the sea, and the sun.
Oh, and when I got home, Marlee “led” me to the couch, and curled in my lap.
21 July 2023
A Ride From Astoria To Denmark, Via Atlanta
I have a confession: I rode a bike-share bike the other night.
No, I wasn't in some faraway place without one of my bikes. I was in my home city--New York, where I live with almost as many bikes (and Marlee) as I lived with family members when I was growing up.
So what was I doing on a CitiBike?
Well, I went to some place where I wasn't sure I could park any of my bikes safely. A phone call confirmed that there is no on-premises bike parking. And, while there are on-street bike racks-- in addition to sign posts, railings and such--I didn't want to lock up my bike for the three hours or more I expected to be at my destination.
This image will give you an idea of what the neighborhood is like:
All right, the whole neighborhood isn't like that. It's actually one of the more affluent areas of the city. The crime rate is lower than in most other neighborhoods but, as in similar neighborhoods, a fair amount of that crime consists of bike theft.
That semi-submerged house is, as you may have surmised, a prop on a stage--specifically, in the Delacorte Theatre, the home of Shakespeare In The Park.
There I saw a very interesting production of Hamlet. All of the major soliloquies (speeches), and most of the original language, was intact. But it was set in suburban Atlanta, and some liberties were taken with the chronology.
Whenever I've assigned the play, I've told students that there are really two Hamlets in the play. The one who delivers "To be or not to be" and those other immortal lines is really Hamlet Jr. or Hamlet II, and he is brooding the death of his father--Hamlet Sr, if you will. In this production, he becomes the patriarch of a mixed-race family. The play opens with his funeral, which includes soul and gospel songs and dance.
For me, the cast (Ato Blankson-Wood is one of my favorite Hamlets!) helped me to see something that has been in the play all along but what is seldom emphasized: what we now call "intergenerational trauma." It also conveys the effect of murder and other kinds of violence on families and communities. And some of the "tweaks" to the original dialogue--such as "Denmark's a prison" becoming "this country is a prison" (so powerfully delivered by Blankson-Wood)--makes the play almost scarily relevant.
Those who insist traditional, period-correct productions may not like this one. And I'll admit that some attempts to transpose a contemporary Black/mixed-race American milieu with medieval Denmark don't always work. But this production "hit" far more often than it "missed" for me, and I recommend it. Oh, and if you need an excuse to ride a Citibike even if you have a few bikes of your own, here it is.
09 April 2023
Happy Easter/Passover/Ramadan!
Today is Easter Sunday. It's also the fourth full day of Passover and the eighteenth of Ramadan.
So, to be fair--and because I'm non-religious and love cats--I am posting this springtime image:
Image by Kilkennycat. |
All praise be to Marlee. And thanks to Max, Charlie, Candice, Charlie (Yes, there were two Charlie-cats in my life!) and Caterina for the memories.
27 January 2023
Fear Not: I'm Still Here!
Dear Readers, I am still alive--but not well. That is why I've been posting less frequently.
My illness isn't life-threatening or disabling. But it has drained, seemingly, all of my energy.
As I recounted a few posts ago, I started to feel congested and tired near the end of my Paris trip. My former religious self might've said that I was being punished for having too good a time. Truth is, the only possible connection I can see between my sojourn and my illness is the Munch exhibit I attended with Alec and Michele at the Musee d'Orsay. It was one of the most crowded exhibits I've ever attended: We, and other visitors were literally shoulder-to-shoulder. It was all but impossible to move individually and independently.
(That, by the way, was my only complaint about the exhibit, or any other I attended while in Paris: I thought it was well-presented but I couldn't linger at some of the works, as I often do when I'm interested.)
I came home just in time for a long weekend. (Monday the 16th was Martin Luther King Jr. day.) Surely, that would give me time, aided with copious quantities of chicken soup and orange juice, to recover my energies for the beginning of the semester on Tuesday.
My body--specifically, my respiratory system--didn't get the message. I felt as if I were being submerged even deeper into a sea of phlegm. My routine has included going to classes, answering only the most urgent emails and curling up with Marlee.
I figured--correctly--that whatever I was suffering wasn't COVID or the flu, as I was vaccinated as soon as the jabs became available. Finally, I called my doctor who believed I had a respiratory infection and advised me to go to the nearest City MD center rather than to make a trip to his office.
His hunch was correct. All I can do now is wait this thing out. Then, I hope, I'll be back to my regular habits of cycling--and blogging.
16 January 2023
It Wasn't Age After All!
The other day, I mentioned that I didn't post during the last few days of my latest Paris trip because my full days ended with my getting back to my hotel in the wee hours of morning and collapsing onto the bed. I intimated that, perhaps, age was catching up with me because I felt tired, if in good ways, after the sorts of activities--visiting museums and friends and, of course, walking and cycling--that also comprised previous trips.
Well, now I know (or, at least, think I know) the real cause of my fatigue. You might think that I am in denial and want to continue calling this blog "Midlife Cycling." I assure you that's not the case. Also, I tend not to suffer from "jet lag" for very long, so that's not a reason why I have become an immobile object or, if I want to put a positive spin on it, Marlee's bed.
What seemed like a slight cold during my time with Alec and Michele on Thursday devolved into bouts of coughing and sneezing on the flight home and, now, my respiratory system turning into something the Department of Environmental Protection might condemn.
Oh well. I've gone from lunches of confit de canard with Jay and Isabelle and civet de cerf with Alec and Michele to slurping down gallons of water, juice, chicken broth, alone, wrapped in a blanket. That means, of course, that I haven't ridden since I've come home to colder, blustier (Is that a word?) weather than I experienced in Paris.
So I am in my apartment with Marlee, my books and my bikes. About the latter--here's what I rode after returning the bike I borrowed:
Turns out, Paris a Velo (formerly known as Paris Velo, C'est Sympa) was open after all! The proprietor, Victor, explained that the pandemic boosted demand for his bikes and, therefore, he's operated year-round ever since. When I last rented one of his bikes four years ago (almost to the week!), he made a special trip into the shop for me and one other customer who'd made a reservation. That might be the reason why he remembered me, "d'une monde different."
The bike I rode was different, too:
in contrast to the more conventional hybrid/city bike I rode four years ago. More about that later.
23 December 2022
A Ride Ahead Of A Storm
The "once in a generation" weather events are happening, well, more than once in a generation.
Such an event was predicted for last night and today. The weather, according to forecasters, would take twists and turns that would cause a script to be rejected as too unbelievable. The day started with temperatures just above freezing. Then the rain came: a few drops falling as I returned to my apartment turned into downpours accompanied by high winds. The temperature rose to springlike levels, but are expected to fall enough to give us the coldest Christmas Eve and Christmas in, well, a generation.
Now, I don't mind riding in rain or wind, or in changing temperatures. But the predicted combination is not my idea of a backdrop for a good ride. I think the only one in my orbit who likes this weather is Marlee because it keeps me home with her!
Anyway, I spent about two and a half hours on Tosca, my Mercian fixed-gear. Most of our ride rimmed the East River shorelines of Queens and Brooklyn. As familiar as it all was, I enjoyed it and, more important, noticed something that I missed because I took a turn I wouldn't normally take.
Along the Greenpoint waterfront is the WNYC Transmitter Park, from which our local public radio stations (on AM and FM) sends out the programs that are often the soundtrack when I'm home. I guess I shouldn't have been surprised to see a mural dedicated to Black Americans who've been killed by police officers. I think I pay a bit more attention to such things than most White Americans. Still, I was astounded and, later, ashamed that I didn't recognize many of the names. What was more disturbing was the knowledge that, as the creators of the murals acknowledge, the "list" is far from complete.
About twenty meters to the right of the BLM mural (or to the mural's left) is another that couldn't be more different.
Perhaps that is the point: The woman in the mural looks as White as the paint in her face. She is as languid as the Sandra Bland, Eric Garner and others in the BLM mural were tense and fearful when they were confronted by constables.
Oh, and she is lounging on what appears to be a Spring day. I was looking at her, and the BLM mural, on the second day of Winter, as a "once in a generation" storm was approaching.
19 December 2022
Clouds And Cuddles
Cold and rain. Then, cold and wind.
That is how Fall has been turning into winter. The clouds' whites and grays, and even the blue that occasionally breaks through them, take on the hardness and clarity of ice.
Long Island Sound at Fort Totten seems to open itself for the purpose of ferrying away the memories, the flickerings, of autumnal hues and sunsets.
I'm not sure whether Marlee can appreciate such things. She, however, wonders why I want to go for a ride when it's cold and windy and overcast. She can't understand why I'd want to leave, if only for a while, when she's dozing off in my lap.
I explain that I will return--and the sensory details of my ride make her cuddles all the more comforting. And, I suspect, my riding makes me more cuddle-able, if only for the body heat a ride generates.
15 November 2022
From Indian Summer To Climate Change
When I was less enlightened, I called it “Indian Summer.” That’s how most people in America referred to a series of unseasonably warm days in the Fall. I don’t know what to call it now. “Another sign of climate change,” as accurate as it may be, isn’t quite as catchy as “Indian Summer.”
Whatever one calls it, we had a dose of it on Friday, Saturday and Sunday morning. The temperature reached 26C (79F). But we also caught the tail end of Hurricane Nicole. She strafed us with wind and dumped a lot of rain. One downpour woke up Marlee, who woke me to a view of…a cascade of rain. It was so thick I couldn’t see beyond my window!
But, a couple of hours after eating my bagel with Saint Andre cheese, the rain stopped. I took Tosca, my Mercian fixed gear bike for a spin with no particular destination in mind.
After wandering along the North Shore of Queens and Nassau County, I stopped in Fort Totten. Although I brought my lights, I didn’t want to ride in the dark. So I knew I’d be headed home when I saw this:
The days definitely are getting shorter. The season is changing. So is the climate.
24 July 2022
I'll Be Back, Really!
It's a human thing. You'll never understand.
Marlee may not know that today's weather is predicted to be even hotter than the past five, with a high temperature around 38C (100F). But, surely, she doesn't understand why I would go out--for a ride, or any other reason--when she cuddles up and falls asleep on me. She knows that I'll be gone--for how long, she may not know. I promised her that today's ride, like those I've taken on each of the past few days, won't be more than a couple of hours. Still, she's doing everything she can to keep me from going.
I think that, deep down, she knows that her efforts might delay me for a few moments but won't stop me. I belive that she also knows I'll be back. Still, she insists on using her superpowers--her cuddliness and that she's ridiculously cute--to persuade me.
Cats may not have a sense of guilt. But I think they know that humans have it--especially if we come from certain religious or ethnic traditions, including the ones in which I was raised.
Don't go!
I'll be back! (No, I didn't say it in my Arnold Schwarznegger* accent!)
*--Just as there isn't one "French" or "Italian" accent, there isn't just one "German" inflection on English. The Governator, however, has an accent all his own!
12 June 2022
Can They Be Bred For This?
During the pandemic, many people adopted dogs. I joked with a neighbor that our street should be renamed "Westminster" because of all of the folks promenading with their pooches.
Along with the increased numbers came canines in configurations and colors I'd never seen before. Some are previously-obscure breeds that found popularity; others, it turns out are new cross-breeds.
I wonder whether some cyclist is trying to create a dog that can accompany a rider without being bundled into a basket or box.
For that matter, is someone trying to breed a cat that can be brought on a bike ride, period? No offense, Marlee!
18 April 2022
The Calico Chronicles
If you've been reading this blog for the past few years, you know I love Marlee. Sometimes, though, she exasperates me: There are some things I simply can't get her to do. I mean, I know she doesn't have opposable thumbs and, well, she's a cat. But still...
I just hope that if she reads this, she doesn't think that I wish she were Marilyn. She's writing a memoir, "Calico Cycles," about her trip around the US. So far she's traveled over 10,000 miles in 32 states since last May and has seen a lot--from the basket of a bicycle.
Now, in case Marlee thinks I'm judging her for not writing, I'll remind her of what I've said before: Writing skills are not a sign of intelligence or any kind of worth. (Why do you think Socrates never wrote?) But, you know, Marlee babe, I tried taking you on rides and almost lost you.
You do have an excuse: I didn't start training you early enough. Marilyn's human, Caleb Werntz, started when she was two months old. You, Marlee, were six months old when you came into my life, and you were born on the street, so perhaps it was too late, or you had (and possibly still have) PTSD from your previous life.
Anyway, Werntz, who hails from Portland (where else?) "got her a harness and leash and put her in the front basket" and took her for her first "training ride" nine years ago. He says that she's slept through most of the journey (Is something a journey if you sleep through it?) but she was nonetheless able to "write" her diary, which he's "translating."
(That might be the hardest part of all: Translating is never easy. I know: I've done it, mostly badly.)
It sounds a bit like a role-reversed "Travels With Charley," although I don't know whether Marilyn is "in search of America, as Steinbeck was--or, for that matter, whether she's read Steinbeck.
Caleb has begun a Kickstarter campaign to raise funds so he can raise money to "promote and distribute" copies of the travel diary. I can forgive Marlee for not knowing how to do that: I've never taught her to use the Internet!